This month's gathering in which I join Cheryl at Thinking About Home for her monthly link up is slightly different than previous months. Although this doesn't strictly follow the "rules" that she outlined, I think I know Cheryl well enough to know that she won't mind... just this once.
April has been a month of moments holding great joy for me. I don't use the word joy lightly since it is not only a word that Scripture attaches holy meaning to, but it was also my mother's name. So I say JOY with its fullest span of meaning.
So many moments that string together to make a season...
** that moment when I took off a pair of jeans, knowing I'd never wear them again because they are way too big.
**that moment when I whispered "Help me" to a friend and she immediately covered me with prayer and spoke live-giving words.
**that moment when that same friend called and said "We are moving. In three days," and my ability to rejoice for their opportunity overshadowed the sorrow I felt at our separation.
**that moment when I stood atop a massive pile of composted horse manure and laughed out loud at this unexpected development in my life.
**that moment when my 2-year-old twin grandsons locked their arms around my neck, not wanting me to leave, and saying "Mommaw" over and over.
**that moment when I was about to take a deep drink from that pit called Anxiety and a notecard arrived in the mail with knowing, meaningful words of encouragement written inside.
**that moment when my husband gave me a look that means the same thing it has always meant but seeing nearly 26 years of depth supporting it.
**that moment when a friend and I shared an afternoon of laughter over a couple cups of tea out on her patio in the spring sunshine.
**that moment when a bad situation took a turn for the worse and a sense of peace flooded into my mind as a balm for the stinging.
**that moment when a root of bitterness released its grip on my heart and I felt the full impact of love flow into that space.
**that moment when an old fear turned into a new confidence.
**that moment when I leaned into the discomfort of true vulnerability that forged a stronger bond with both old and new friends.
**that moment when I realized that I am developing a trust response toward God in stressful seasons.
**that moment when the scent of lilacs reminded me to appreciate the simple things.
All I can say now is... May has some big shoes to fill.